Rain (The Scorpion MC Series Book 4) Page 5

  “You do know that they love you right? Especially Storm, he misses his best friend and his man more than you think.”

  “I just don’t think I can go back.”

  “Why’s that?” Logan runs his fingers through his hair. When he slowly looks at me I see it, the look that I had for years.

  “You don’t think you deserve him do you?” His eyes widen then softens.

  “After hurting him like I did no I don’t.I regret what I said once it came out of my mouth. I thought it was the best option at the time.”

  “What about now?”

  “It was the stupidest thing I ever done in my life and now I have to live with it.”

  “See you think you have to, but you don’t. They want you back. You are the only person who’s stopping you from being happy.”

  “That I know, well I know that now. I just don’t know how to fix it.”

  “Go talk to him and tell him how you feel and stop running from him.” I smile at him as I repeated his words back to him.

  “Touche.” I get comfortable on the bed I didn’t realize how tired I was until I feel my eyelids getting heavy. I close my eyes and fall into the darkness.

  Rain

  Yesterday was just plain out horrible, that argument with Kenzi went further than it was supposed to be. Dalson’s message me last night telling me that she will be spending the night over there. As long as I know she’s safe I don’t care where she’s at but if I’m being honest I rather have her home with me. The fact that she wasn’t homemade sleeping for me hard. I’m used to having her by my side that it was uncomfortable sleeping alone. I walk to the Scorpion Bar to clear my head and to talk to my brother hopefully he has some advice for me. As I walk in Storm’s head turn towards me.

  “You look like crap Rain.”

  “You don’t look so hot yourself Storm.” To be honest he doesn’t; he misses Logan more than he thought he would.

  “Did you come here to talk?” He asks.

  “Yeah how did you know that?”

  “Seriously you know this family we don’t know how to keep their mouth shut.” I sigh. He's right on that we always tell each other everything, if something goes down we all know about it by the end of the day. I sit in front of him then grab his beer and take a sip.

  “As you know Kenzi and I got into a fight when she got home.”

  “Yes we all saw that coming what we didn’t see coming was the outcome of that fight. What the hell happened?”

  “At that point I was mad about everything. So she said that I have no right to be mad at her for not telling me about her past, when I don't tell her about my past.”

  “She has a point Rain. You have to tell her your past so when she's ready she can tell you her story, she needs to feel like you can trust her enough to tell so she can do the same.”

  “I see your point, thanks for the talk it always helps me think clearly when I'm in a tough spot.”

  “What is family for?” I smile at him and to my surprise he smiles back it’s not his usual small smile, but his regular bright smile he used to show more when Logan was around but with everything going on, we barely get to see it now.

  “I'll talk to you later. Hopefully when I get home she will be there.”

  “Good luck brother.”

  “By the way Storm, Logan is doing pretty good this week. From what I have heard you should go talk to him, don't give up on that stubborn ass.”

  “Thanks I hear you. He's one stubborn man then again so are we.”

  As I walk out of the bar I take a deep breath then slowly let it go, on the way home I start to think clearly, the past is never easy to talk about but it will help you heal if you do. Today is the day for me to heal from everything that I was forced to do. When I walk in the house it was quiet it was kinda nice, but I miss the crying and Emily running throughout the house. I enter my room to see Kenzi laying down in our bed but in my spot.

  “You’re home.”

  “Yeah I wanted to talk to you.”

  “I'm glad you’re home it saved me the time of hunting you down so I can apologize.” Her head tilts back in surprise.

  “Things got out of control last night and I'm sorry. I didn't mean to be insensitive about how you were feeling and I do get not wanting to talk about a bad past.”

  “Funny I came home to apologize to you. I'm sorry for lying to you it was the last thing I wanted to do. I just didn't know how to come up with the half truth about that I was doing and I should've messaged you back. I didn't mean to make you worry. Rain, I love you. You mean the world to me, this family we have is everything to me and I never want to lose that.” I grab the back of her neck and pull her into a kiss.

  “Kenzi, I love you too. You are the only woman for me, you are it for me. You are my whole world, nothing will ever change that and you will never lose me or our family.” Kenzi wraps her arms sounds me and I hugged her tight not wanting to let go.

  “I'm ready to tell you my story.” Kenzi looks up at me. She is shocked but also happy and relieved.

  “Are you sure? You don't have to do that, Rain.”

  “Yes I do it's time to heal from these old wounds plus you were right. How can I expect you to open up to me if I don't open up myself? I'm ready to tell you everything it's not going to be easy to tell and it's not going to be easy to hear either. So our prepare yourself as much as you can because this is not going to be a fun story, not at all.”

  “I understand that. You can start whenever you’re ready.” She says after she kisses my cheek. I grab her hand and sit on our bed.

  “Storm and I had horrible parents they neglected us since the day Storm was born. I was the one who took care of him, I did whatever I had to do to protect him and made sure he was fed at all times. Our parents always used up all of the money if it wasn’t on drugs, it was to gamble. So I had to steal a lot as a kid to make sure Storm had everything he needed. After I made sure Storm was good I did what I could for myself. When Storm turned two our parents sold us to people that uses kids for their own sick and twisted pleasure, we had to do whatever we were told to do if we didn’t we would be punished for it. I did a lot of horrible things, at the age of seven I was forced to kill a man. I’ve killed a lot of people, burned places to the ground, destroyed evidence to keep people from being put in jail. I’ve done everything you can think of. I did whatever to keep my brother safe and the other little kids that were there. We all learned not to defy them. Storm especially found out the hard way when he told them that he would not do what they told him to do anymore; they beat him he was always a trouper about it he even took beatings for the others kids, but one time he told them no, so they shot one of the younger kids in front of us just to make a point that we had no other choice but to listen or we die. After that nobody defied them again. When Storm was ten that is when I got him the hell out of there. I woke him up in the middle of the night and got on a train the ones with the containers, we got off here it was actually close to the bar. They caught up to us so I had Storm run in one direction and I ran in the other to make sure he got away and he did that’s when Felix found him and raised him as his own. Since that day and I’m very grateful for that, Storm was able to get a real family. I got caught then was sent back to hell and got the worse beating of my life for running away and getting my brother out. It was all worth it knowing he got away put a smile on my face, and I got my ass handed to me more because I smiled there’s nothing I wouldn’t do for my family and that’s why I stayed. Even though they didn’t know where he was exactly they did know which state we got away to, so if I didn’t do as I was told they would have done anything to find him and kill him right in front of me. I wasn’t going to let that happen so I did the only thing I could’ve done I listened and did as I was told without bitching about it. That’s about it without all the gory details.” I stare into Kenzi’s eyes and I can’t tell what she’s thinking and it’s making me nervous as hell. Kenzi gets on her knees than wraps her whol
e body around me and hugs me tight. I wasn’t expecting that to be honest I don’t know what I was expecting I just know this wasn’t it at all.

  “I’m sorry Rain you and Storm have been through a lot. Some people don’t deserve being parents. I had crappy parents as well, I’m glad your parents had you and your brother because if they didn’t I wouldn’t have you. You are everything to me, you and Storm are my family and I don’t think less of either one of you.” My eyes widen in shock, I couldn’t believe what I was hearing but it made me feel good at the same time. Kenzi leans in and kisses me softly.

  “Thank you for telling me your story, I need a little more time before I talk about my own.” I grab her face and kiss her softly.

  “You don’t have to rush, you can tell me when you are good and ready.” I hear the door close Kenzi gets up and opens the door when she looks out of the room she takes off running . What the fuck? I walk out of our room and she was wrapped around Storm crying.

  “You told her about our past didn’t you?”

  “Yeah I was wondering when the tears were going to come.” Storm hugs her tight while she was holding on to him for dear life crying.

  “Storm I just want you to know that I love you and that I don’t think less of you. You and Rain are my family, I love you both so much you both didn’t deserve what you went through. I will always have your back no matter what.” She says as she cries and tries to breathe from all her crying.

  “Calm down Kenzi just breathe please.” Storm says softly. I can see that my brother is starting to get emotional and I am as well. Our eyes are always the tell for us. Any emotion we feel you can see it in our eyes. Storm wipes away her tears and smiles.

  “That means a lot to me that you don’t think less of us, you are my sister and I love you and there’s nothing I wouldn’t do for you don’t ever forget that.” Kenzi smiles brightly at him with a tear running down her face.

  I love that they get along so well it’s everything to me that she loves my brother like he’s her brother.

  “Why are you crying now?” Storm asks.

  “It’s nothing. That you think of me as a sister means the world to me more than you know.” Storm leans down and kisses her cheek.

  “How about we have a day just the three of us we can watch TV if you like?”

  “That sounds good to me.” Storm says.

  “That would be great.” We sit on the couch and I grab the remote.

  “What do you want to watch?” I ask.

  “Supernatural.” Storm laughs.

  “Didn’t you and the girls just finish watching that?”

  “Yes, what’s your point?

  “Alright let's watch it.” I went on Netflix and clicked on Supernatural, we got comfortable on the couch and watched it for hours.

  Kenzi

  Hearing a groan I wake up, I hear it again but louder this time. I turn my head to see Rain with sweat on his forehead, and groaning in pain it’s like he’s having a bad dream.

  “Baby wake up.” I shake him gently trying not to rattle him. Rain jolts awake breathing heavily.

  “It’s okay you're safe, you're not in any danger.” Rain grabs me and places me on top of him, he hugs me tight. The pain in my heart is unbearable seeing him broken like this breaks my heart, I want to do whatever I can to help him get through this rough night.

  “Do you want to talk about it?” I ask softly worried that he might close himself off.

  “No I don’t, I want to forget help me forget everything bad.” It breaks my heart seeing him like this, I will do whatever it takes to help him bury his demons, I grab his face and kiss him. Rain grabs my hair and pulls my head back and deepens the kiss I moan into his mouth. Feeling Rain’s cock grow underneath me makes me buck my hips forward. He moans deep in his throat and it was the sexiest sound I ever heard. Rain grabs the long shirt I’m wearing and lifts it over my head. Rain lifts me up a little then slowly lowers me on his dick. Feeling his cock throbbing in my pussy, I thrust forward as he thrusts upward; my head snaps back as I moan. He feels better than I imagined. Rain picks me up than places me on my back and thrusts deep inside my pussy.

  “Fuck.” He curses under his breath. I wrap my legs around his waist as he thrusts faster and harder, I bite into his neck to muffle more moans and he growls deep in his throat.

  “I love you Kenzi.” He says as he kisses up my neck that makes me shiver.

  “I love you too Rain.” He smashes his mouth on to my mouth and slides his tongue along the inside my mouth, I suck his tongue into my mouth. We thrust together and my pussy clenches around his cock I come hard as I ever did and Rain was following right behind me in his own orgasm. He rolls off of me then intertwined our fingers. I roll over and place my head on his chest, Rain kisses the top of my head. I couldn't help but to smile I haven’t felt this happy in a very long time and I don’t ever want to lose that. Rain slowly gets up and grabs his phone and turns the flashlight on.

  “What are you doing?” I ask curiously.

  “I finally have you fully naked and I want to see that turtle tattoo.” I burst into laughter.

  “It took you long enough.” He points the flashlight on me and bites his bottom lip as he's looking down my body. He's hand goes on my waist and moves his hand down a little.

  “I finally found it. I like it but the fact that someone saw this much of your skin bothers the fuck out of me.” He turns off the flashlight then lays back down.

  “Would it make you feel better if I said a girl did my tattoo?”

  “Kinda.” I laugh.

  “You are too much, you know that.”

  “What? I don't like when people touch what's mine.”

  “That I know Rain none of the men in this family do. They go all alpha on us.”

  “Damn fucking right.” Rain is my everything and I wouldn't have it any other way.

  It’s ten in the morning while Rain is still sleeping he slept through the rest of the night after his nightmare. I grab my phone from the table and send a message to Erika.

  Kenzi- Hey Erika I been thinking we should tell them everything today. Yesterday Rain told me about his past and it broke my heart now it’s my turn. Are you ready for this?

  Erika- No, but I agree it’s time to tell them come by the house when you’re ready the boys are already here besides Rain and you.

  Kenzi- Yeah when he wakes up we will come by.

  Erika- Hopefully talking about our past will help us heal just like the boys.

  Kenzi- I hope so plus I’m tired of lying to him and to the boys especially Devin. He’s been so great to me helping through my panic attacks and everything else in between.

  Erika- Trust me I know what you mean he’s my husband and I haven’t told him everything. Devin loves you. You are his sister you’re family and he protects his family no matter what.

  Kenzi- That’s why I love our boys the Scorpions and the Devils will always protect their own and the fact that they been treating me like family since day one means the world to me.

  Erika- I know what you mean, I will see you soon.

  Kenzi- See you soon.

  Rain sits next to me and his hair is dripping wet he leans in and kisses me.

  “Why is your hair wet?” I ask.

  “I just got out of the shower.”

  “Really I didn’t even hear the water.”

  “Yes, I just got out it’s why I’m even dressed.”

  “Rain do you really want to know about my past?” I ask softly.

  “Yes I do. I want you to be able to talk about anything with me and want to tell me whatever is on your mind.” I take a deep breath and slowly let it out.

  “Alright then let’s go across the street.” He grabs my hands as he walks to Erika’s house.

  “Hey Kenzi, how are you doing today?” Devin asks. Ever since my panic attacks started and he’s been helping me through them he always asks me how I’m doing everyday.

  “I fine, I came here to talk.�
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  “What’s wrong?” He asks nervously.

  “Everything is good Devin calm down, I just thought it was time for you guys to know about my past. Especially you since you have been helping me with my panic attacks and you deserve to know what is causing them.”

  “Okay.” He looks shocked and I don’t blame him for it. Devin grabs my free hand and leads me to the couch. I look over at Erika and she gives me a nod.

  “My brother and I didn’t have good parents. They were selfish people and only cared about themselves, they wasted money on the stupidest things that they didn’t need. Whenever they ran out of money one of them and sometimes both always went to Trent for money. They also did whatever he asked. It was part of paying him back but I knew they liked being a part of it even if it was just a few times a month. I was his big sister so I always made sure he was always taken care of. It was my job as the older sibling as some of you know. The day my parents died was the same day our lives changed forever. Trent took us so we can pay off our parent’s debt, like I said they were selfish fucking people who don’t care about anything but themselves. That’s when we met Erika and the boys of course they made being stuck in that hellhole manageable and fun from time to time. We were forced to do things we didn’t want to do for example running drugs all over the place. Not everything was bad at the Evil Devils there were great times. Benjamin was everything to me so when the day he fell in love, it was a great day he was so adorable.” I couldn’t help but to smile remembering the good times with my brother. I look at Erika and she also had a smile on her face.